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SMS & Email
今日，收到他发o既SMS。
我唔敢睇。
然后又收到他发o既Email。
我同样唔敢睇。
好奇怪！
当初，我明明好想同他一齐。点解依o架会变成o甘？
Fang话过我。我仲未忘记以前。
虽然我觉得自己已经忘记……但系……原来……我可能一直未忘记。
将所有深深埋在内心，认为唔会有人发现……
可惜……
我可能真系唔识扮忘记。
世界真系细
我从来都觉得世界系好细好细。至少系我认识o既圈子里面，所有O既人不停不停见面。想见o既人，唔想见O既人，不停系我身边擦过，不停系我面前经过。
今日同阿妈去Hursville买o野，本来林住系伟洋YUM CHA。点知见到好多人，唯有算数。之后我同阿妈去Shopping Center行，行下行下就开始肚饿。之后我地决定去新明茶餐厅食。
去到新明感觉都无咩，点知突然见到XXX个阿哥。
心口一震，当场忘记自己系边个。
哎！等我仲以为已经时过境迁。
原来我仲记得好多好多o野。
that was the difference…
EN… I don’t think today was a good day. As what yesterday happen, I just can’t control all my mind. I can say… I just can’t tell myself to stop everything, and just work on my job.
I want to keep all my friends’ relationship in a good way… but sometimes, I just can’t tell what I have to do…
Well today I try to buy something from next door… and then I just… BANG!! FAll down on the floor. Then my hand just start feels hurt… that was the first time… I just want to hold on someone, no matter who it is, just give me a embrace… and tell me… this world was not what I am looking at like. But… there was no one… I just can’t tell myself, who can do that.
After that.. he came and ask me, how I am feeling… I just can only tell myself – STOP! He only do what a friend should do, don’t think too much.
After he came to me, with a bag of ice… I know that… if a differen person doing that, I am not go to feel so emotion. It was because of him..
But… after everything, I know, if he ask me… 85% that I will say NO… Not because I don’t like him… it because I don’t want to make things so complicated. I don’t want the other guy hates him and me.
And also… if love need to think about too much, then it was not what it is.
crying
我从来不知道，原来生命的玩笑是这般让人悲伤。
今天……我从别人的口中知道了……有另外一个人对我 有意思。而这个人，我不否认，我也有好感。但是他却放弃了。突然直到这个消息，我觉得生命对我开了好大的玩笑。在我，就在我不想继续纠缠。就答应那个追求我的人的时候，突然发生了这样的事情。不知道是不是上天要我不要做错误选择的提示。
容易的选择，谁都会。但是要坚持自己的真心，却不是谁都可以。
在和朋友吃晚饭后，我回到家。和他在网上聊了一下。
看着冰冷的视窗，我突然哭了。
不知道自己在等待什么，期待什么，但是我就是哭了。眼泪那样的流着，第一次我觉得被喜欢上，并不是一件幸福的事情。第一次我觉得幸福的事情这么远，又这样近……第一次发现，原来面对感情需要很大很大的勇气。
苏女侠行走江湖的记录 